The closer we get, the more time flies...

I'm almost 31 weeks and I'm not sure where the time went. It seems like my April due date is just around the corner. We've been able to confirm that Logan is breech (with little chance that he'll turn), so it appears a C-section is the way to go. It also increases our chance of having a live birth if he makes it that far.

We had a bit of a scare health-wise last week. The doctor thought I might have gall stones and ordered an ultrasound which came back negative. I think the stress of it all is getting to me and causing stomach pain as well as other infirmities. She was also looking to verify baby's position, as well as amniotic fluid level. I'm still waiting to hear back on the fluid level. We want to do our best to ensure he'll be alive at the birth so we'll get a little time with him. I'm told if the fluid decreases enough, he will pass away so we need to keep an eye on it.

Since my last update, I have emailed a contact at our church to request that they (as a church) pray for us. It's part of my "going public" with this trial we're in. Stepping out in faith...

28 weeks

Today God woke me up at 4 am. How do I know it was God you may be asking. Well, I AM NOT a morning person and not only did I wake up, but I felt called to open my Bible and read. For some reason, I began crying and saying to God, "Whatever you want me to do, I'll do it." It's not that I don't have a reason to cry because this whole situation is pretty sad, but I was sobbing but not really feeling sad. It's hard to describe. Anyway, I feel like God is calling me to go public with this situation we're in. So far, I've told my friends and family, and anyone that I have regular contact with, but we haven't shared it with our church or anyone outside of the above groups. I guess I don't want to feel like I'm being talked about and have a tendency to keep certain things within my own group of friends.

Lately, I've been praying that God will show us a way to go through this in a way that honors Him. I'm guessing this is a step in that direction because it's definitely outside of my comfort zone...