Remiss

Okay, so I've obviously taken a break from writing. Life has been busy and, to be honest, it's been a hard season. Usually, I love the Christmas season, the joy it holds, the decorations, the hope that we have because of Jesus' birth. In my head, I keep thinking, "I should really be joyful. Because Jesus came, I'll get to see my kids and my sister in Heaven again." Should being the operative word. Not that I don't believe what I'm telling myself, I'm just not feeling it. It's okay, I know I'll get back there at some point. I guess I have hope instead of joy this year.

I finally accomplished something I've been putting off since April - I ordered Logan's headstone. He now has a temporary stone marking his grave. We finally went out to see it and bring flowers last weekend. I felt so at peace seeing his name there. I have been feeling bad about leaving his grave unmarked for months, but wasn't really ready for the closure that comes with ordering the headstone. I'm still working on the design for the final marker, but hope to be done with it this week. That's the goal.

We've all been taking turns being sick over the Christmas break, so I'm really looking forward to getting back into the old routine. Till next week...